Hate.

I'm staring at my keyboard and I can't seem to find the right words to express myself.


I'm lost.
I'm tired.
I'm lost and tired, if that makes any sense.

I'm trying to be positive. I really am. Maybe this will be another rant-y post, the kind which you stop reading midway.
Or maybe not.

You loathe me.
Despise my guts.
There were a billion ways this could have ended.
But not like this.
It happens all the time, yes ?
Best friends - become absolute strangers.
But not with us.
We were not over, remember ?
I guess I'll never know.
Why so much hatred ?

Summer is here. I've been idle as fuck, as unproductive as a rock.
I have nothing to think about.
Nothing important occupies my thoughts.
I'm wasting precious time , but frankly I don't know what to do.
My days have become a continuous pattern of eat-sleep-eat-swim-eat-tv-eat.
Maybe eat some more.

I'm plagued with a constant feeling within me of wanting to run away.
To start over with new people.
My kind of people.

Girls who probably think beyond the latest shade of lipstick.
I need people with whom I can lie down under a tree and talk about life and cheesecakes.

Summer 2012 isn't going as fabulously as I expected.
Maybe I expected too much.

In other news I got my license after 6 long painful months :D :D :D

So congratulate me.

*victory dance*

GAIZ, I need a little help.

As you'll know, I planned on getting my first tattoo this year.

I've finally decided what it will be.

I'm just going to have "believe" tattoed on myself.

YAY or NAY ?

Also, suggestions as to where ?

I can't seem to pick between my foot, hipbone or my back. :C

Lots of heat from this end 

<3